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well everything went well yesturday! my babys 1st b-day party went smoothly and i did well at my new job. i am working doubles for the next week and i won't be home much and i am too broke to buy anything to eat so i guess that will help with the whole restricting thing. i only have one very small piece of pizza at the b-day party and that was it for the day! hooray for me! oh and i had a non fat vanilla latte from starbucks earlier. i didn't even have cake! and it was my favorite kind. i was just tooo busy to bother with it. so i am going to work at 1pm and i have a break from 4-6pm and i go back until about 10 pm so i wont have any time to eat. i have major shopping to do on my break so i don't even have time then. i find that i am my strongest in the morning and it works out b/c i only have time to eat in the morning. well i hope you all have a good day!!!
September 25th, 2007
determinedSeptember 20th, 2007
well i am soo proud that i am in my third day of my fast!!!! i am so going to reward myself as soon as i get rent paid. i am gonna go shopping or something. everyone is noticing that i am losing weight i just wish i knew how much! i neeeeed a scale! if i do buy one i am going to have to hide it from the b/f he already has suspicions about my ED. i am starting a new job at a really expensive resturant and i am still working the job i have now so i am going to be reallllly busy the next couple of weeks and the best thing is that i cant afford the food at my new job so even if i wanna eat i cant. well i thought that i would update all that reads this! like anyone else does but me but oh well!
cheerfulSeptember 13th, 2007
today my bf found out about my ED and he is going to be watching me hardcore. i dont know how i am going to be able to hide my eating patterns anymore. i need help!!!! please if anyone is reading this HELP!!!!! i cant purge. i cant get past the whole ruining my teeth and my hair falling out thing. so there is no hope and all my good work is ruined! i am hopeless!
crushedSeptember 9th, 2007
do you think she eats cookies?
why cant you look like her?
you probably weigh twice as much as her!
this is all you need to eat!
skinny girlz have more fun.
this is why you work out! you will never look like this.
you thighs are way too big look at hers!
why cant you look like her?
you probably weigh twice as much as her!
this is all you need to eat!
skinny girlz have more fun.
this is why you work out! you will never look like this.
you thighs are way too big look at hers!
optimisticSeptember 4th, 2007
hey all that read this!
I absolutly hate holidays and the food that comes along with them! i hate the fact that no one knows what i am trying to do by losing weight. i am trying to regain all the control that has been taken away by being mom and girlfriend and supporting my family. i don't get to say when i wake up or when i go to sleep or when i shower or when i use the restroom or when i can eat or when i smoke or when i sit and rest. at least i can control what i eat. i hate that there is too many people around to be able to purge after i binge. i hate having to hide everything but i know if someone knows they will want to stop me and my life will again not be mine anymore. i dont know what to do.
some thinspo:
<3 Love you all <3
I absolutly hate holidays and the food that comes along with them! i hate the fact that no one knows what i am trying to do by losing weight. i am trying to regain all the control that has been taken away by being mom and girlfriend and supporting my family. i don't get to say when i wake up or when i go to sleep or when i shower or when i use the restroom or when i can eat or when i smoke or when i sit and rest. at least i can control what i eat. i hate that there is too many people around to be able to purge after i binge. i hate having to hide everything but i know if someone knows they will want to stop me and my life will again not be mine anymore. i dont know what to do.
some thinspo:
<3 Love you all <3
annoyedAugust 30th, 2007
Hi guys
So i have been doing really well lately but last night at work i binged (i work at a restaurant) and today i feel disgusting. plus a guy at work called me a large girl. so today i have had coffee and that is it. i do have a problem i need help with. no one knows about my lack of eating and i have been shaking alot and i need to know if there is a way to hide that. Let me know if you have an answer.
Thanks guys!
Luv <3
crappyAugust 27th, 2007
Hi guys! Just wanted to tell you i am new and happy to be here
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